Thursday, December 29, 2011

New Years Resolution

I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas and I hope God blesses this new year for you all.

Normally I make the typical New Year's resolution-to exercise more often and lose weight. While I am going to try and do those things more than I do normally, I am making a resolution to myself, my husband, my family, my friends and My God, that I am going to believe by faith so I can walk by sight. There are many leaps of faith I believe my Father is asking me to take. I am a planner andI like to have things all planned out and organized, but I truly believe God is preparing me and my husband for a different path next year. I don't know what it is, but I feel Him calling us. I see Him working these plans into action for us. I feel Him constantly tugging at my heart. I am seeing changes being made in my ideals and my plans for our family. I am trusting and believing in His power and sovereignty more and more each day. I know He has a plan for me and Curtis. I know He has a plan to one day begin making us into parents, because of the way I am seeing life and thinking about things-every decision I make I reflect on what would be best for us when we have a family.

My prayer for you all is to allow God to take control. I know it is hard. I totally get that. But He does have a plan and purpose for each of you. I hope you can allow God to work in and on you. His plan is better than any other plan you could ever fathom for yourself.

Happy New Year and may God bless you throughout the 2012 year!!! :)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

its been a while!

I can't believe how long it has been since I have last posted. Things have been extremely busy...
Curtis and I have been diligently working on not sweating the small stuff. While it has not been extremely easy, I have noticed a difference in my attitude and stress level. We decided that this was something the two of us needed to work on because we started noticing how affected we get after something so piddly. For instance, I dropped a piece of paper and you would have thought the world ended. I was astonished at how upset I was over a piece of paper falling off the wall. I realized that if I am wanting to have kids, then I can NOT let things affect me so deeply, especially such small things. If I can't have faith in the small things, how can God help me in the BIG stuff? I realized I am a unbelieving believer...if that makes any sense. So, I am working on it. I am trying to take one moment at a time, trying to laugh at myself more often (we all know there is plenty to laugh at) and trying to enjoy life better. So, here is to not sweating the small stuff and believing that God CAN AND WILL handle it ALL!!!!!