Monday, October 17, 2011


I have heard Mandisa's song STRONGER several, several times. I have never really listened to it. This year has turned out to be such a difficult year for me. I have never in my life felt so overwhelmed. I have no idea what is going on. My whole life feels so out of it. I don't like feeling like this, I want this to change. I listened to this song and just cried. I feel like waves have overtaken me. I feel so lost and in such pain. I try to put a smile on my face and every day it gets harder and harder to force it on.
Listening to this song I was reminded...I have to hold on...God is making me stronger in this...this is not going to last forever...each second He is molding me into someone stronger. I can't do this alone, I need to hold on to him. I need to hold His hand and fall into the arms of Jesus. He hasn't left me, He is still there, right there. If you haven't already listen to this song, I mean really listen to it. It has done something for me.

Sunday, October 2, 2011 that's why I do this!

The teaching profession can be so hard sometimes but it can also be really rewarding, as well. I was quickly reminded of that on Friday. We were reading this book called Library Mouse. It is about this little mouse who lives in a hole in the library. He loves to write books and surprises the people in the library every day with a new book. They don't know who this "person" is that is writing these books but they leave it a letter to have a "meet the author" day. The mouse is scared because...well...he is a mouse and mice and people don't, generally speaking, have a great relationship. So he sets up this tissue box and decided to put a mirror in it on "meet the author" day and when the kids look in it, they see they are authors. It is a great book to teach children that we can all be authors. Well, after we read this story I shared a dream of mine--to write my very own children's book. But I told them I was scared that I wouldn't be able to do it. That I am not a good author. Now, I have told them time and time again that the words "I can't" are not uttered in my room. That we can do anything and everything if we try. I tell them to reach for the moon and grab it, because NOTHING is unreachable.

Do you know what those little cuties told me when I told them I was scared to write my own book because I might not be good at it???? They told me, "Mrs. Alford, just reach for the moon and grab it. Nothing is unreachable if only you try!!!"

Well, as it turns out, they are listening! God, thank you for the little reminders of why I do what I do every day.