All this smiling is wearing me down

So I was reading in Ephesians that I need to smile as I do everything and to remember that no matter who is giving me orders, I am doing everything for the Lord.

I worked really hard to live by this today. I prayed this morning that God would help me to focus on Him. I am thankful for the way He stuck by me today.

I have been going to a new church since about August. I know I shouldn't give glory to a person or group of people and I really am not. I just have grown so much since going there. The leaders of the church share amazing messages. They really listen to the heavenly Father. They don't get caught up in some vision. They don't worry about being the bigger, better, more theatrical, more "marketable" church. They just want to know Jesus, listen to His voice and follow Him wherever that might lead.

At my job, there are so many times you want to throw it all out the window, give up, scream and shout. But, you just can't do that. I am not saying that I am perfect at my job or with my attitude, because I am most certainly, not. However, I always have to keep things in perspective. I have to remember that I am working in the lives of young children...our future. If I can't keep my cool, how can I expect them to? That is why I pray to keep my eyes focused on the Lord. Because if I don't, I will not measure up to this great task God has blessed me with. My job is a great task. It is helping to develop young minds and to teach them in the way they should go. If God has allowed me to be this example, this influence to young minds, than I better do it wisely and with Him as the focus.

I am thankful for Center City. I am thankful for them helping me to see how to keep my eyes in tune with God, my roots glued to the only living source there is. He is the vine and I am the branches and I need to help the vine grow with more branches and I plan on doing that with my students.

I know this post is a bit sporadic, but after a long day at work, it is hard for me to focus and get all my thoughts straight. There are always so many things blurring around in my head after work.