Well, I am back from the beach and had a fine time! One more week and I will be on my big vacation to the Caribbean!!!!
While at the beach I decided to keep my nieces there a couple extra days since they were going to be going home earlier than I was. I had a good time with them and my other niece and nephew. Once again, I was reminded and encouraged at how much I am wanting to be a mom to my own children.

I am reading about how basically, God is the builder of your home, if you allow Him to be. God will be the guardian of your home if you allow Him to be. If you don't allow Him in, you are doing all things in vain. When you allow God in, He will deliver many blessings to you.

I am so guilty of seeing the "picture perfect" family and wanting that for my life. But God did not make any one of us alike. So, not only is He a builder, but He is a custom builder. He will work hallways and staircases into your life that fit perfectly with His will for you. He will create doorways that lead to countless blessings, IF you allow Him completely into your heart.

The picture perfect family for me is one with a few children, a white picket fence, a couple of dogs...but more importantly, it is one with a foundation firmly built on the Lord. Because I can have all the kids I want, the beautiful house with all the beautiful things inside, all the little animals to make my family look complete. But the truth of the matter is NOTHING WILL EVER BE GOOD AND FRUITFUL UNLESS GOD IS THE ONE BUILDING MY HOME.

God has not decided that now is the time for Curtis and I to have a family. I am getting better at being okay with that. I am trying to patiently wait on His timing, because deep down inside I know and truly believe that His timing is best and perfect. But after reading this today, I decided that I may not be a mother to my own children, but I can be an other (like a mother) to my nieces and nephew, to the children I teach and any young person who needs someone to love them. I spend a lot of time with my nieces and I find myself teaching them many things, so then I am like a mother to them...until God builds children into my home.

So, if you want to have countless blessings, you have to decide what is more important, material things which moths and dust will destroy...""Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal." Matthew 6:19. These things here on earth are nothing and will always be nothing, but store up a relationship with God, do things here on earth that will bring you closer to heaven and living eternally with our custom builder, God. If you want to be a mother and are not one yet, be an other to someone who needs love. If you want a sense of family, but don't have it, find a church and build community and relationships there. And remember, your life will always seem like it is in shambles unless you allow God to build and perfect it.